I am isolated. Now I must learn to be solitary in solidarity. We got the VP candidate I wanted to have for the Democratic Party. I have brought this uncovered no more up today, and there has been much intercession work on my part to see these breakthroughs just like so many others. I deleted past work again today; this is largely a blog which is going to be for book review. I have a second free Uncovered No More that will display some YouTube and coloring books and who knows what else. Here is the first article:
But I am not really a person here anymore. My entire life has been taken away, that is nothing new under the sun for a person testifying as I do according to the New Testament. As so much of my writing came to pass and I was blamed for never doing enough physically and changing and being a problem to people so much of the time, I was busy surviving what it is to testify what I actually have testified. I am here for my family, my core 12 member family, to simply say I failed. If I hadn’t, all these side-disagreements wouldn’t be in our lives and I wouldn’t have had to destroy so much of my work. It was work; I want you all to understand that, anyway.
So I told someone tonight that for the last time, I will admit failure and I will make it so more thoroughly by saying I give up. My websites are simply me, Cara Beaty, expressing my author and artist side. The rest of it is gone, and I failed.
I was simply put on this earth not to deny my testimony in Jesus Christ the King of kings. I did it. I never denied Him. And I have someone tonight who admits that it wouldn’t have wanted me to do that ever, and yet, nobody will bond together and just begin again. So I am the failure, I give up, and I move on appreciating so many people, most of whom have gone to the other side. But I appreciate some of them still living too, just now my body count of those actual people I’ve known and know still is much smaller than it used to be. I am glad you have your lives, truly.
I have fellowship, chores, school work to enjoy with three young people, and a busy life. But I am now committing to be solitary yet not isolated. That is what I am supposed to do. I was successful with my mission, the mission is gone, and I must move on to the sunset of my life with resolution for myself: deep satisfaction and joy for the King of kings and me. We made it and we now have a democratic Vice President candidate that is a girl lol and dark-skinned. It is an honor to have suffered for the cause of Christ in this country for this moment no matter the next moment.
What is more, I am about to do a piece of artwork for a word: Provision. Except for me, after all the spirituality I’ve admitted only to be tormented by the admittance for 12 years, it is called ProVision because I am a pro-visionary life. That is funny, isn’t it allegorical, angelic incense angel, Tara? (Smile)
I will admit I think it is beyond stupid that the people in my actual life IRL cannot join together and admit the full truth and move on better. Nope. Won’t happen and I have a witness to that. I told the witness after a two hour conversation I’m not showing up anymore nor do I hope for said meeting and conclusion. I used to hope for it, I have lost hope there but not everywhere. I am committed to being thankful each day.
I took a walk tonight, had some laughs after the hard conversations, and am thankful for a few things. It should be more so I’m not a good Christian either lol.
King of kings, I’m all out of love without you. I’m watching again, for you, yet we know the truth about how I’m your Way, and you made that clear on Twitter without people who know me IRL knowing about it. Yes, I know what you are saying. I trust You to someday tell them all how you communicate with Me, but I told someone today that You are talking to Me, and that is all I will admit.
I know You are right, believing in me eternally. Thank You, Sir.
PS: solitary is healthy. Understanding there is a difference between silence that is solitary and lonely isolation out of choice is a necessity of difference I must point out. I love being with my family. I simply am recognizing I failed and we all have become solitary yet loving in our wholeness together not apart apart. It’s a miracle. So I can say some things, but don’t anyone else think about it other than success for the King of kings or so help me GOD lol I’ll find you and cuss you out and then smile.