I have reached this point. Thank God Jesus Christ, and since my bills are paid unlike the untold millions of other women accosted here in the cursed reality of life, I can still be the witness before God I am the vessel to be whom has seen the Lord. I see the Lord. It is to the glory of God the Father.
But I am crying here, this morning. For as it were; the very Bible Record of the New Testament has betrayed me even as the very entire Word of God has betrayed HIM. What a holistically, radically, wrong thought you say. Not at all. Go read the emotions of GOD in the Old Testament. Did HE not betray HIMSELF to have created people, and particularly men–in the image of God? Yes, yes HE betrayed HIMSELF and has lived like that for many years across time. Evolution is wholly false. Thank GOD for that fact because then GOD HIMSELF would have been confined for years in that hell hole of falseness for millions of years, so to speak. My God, my God, why has human male forsaken THEE? Even Christian men do this. That is why I’m fully broken this day, and crying. You love your way, your truth, and your life to the womanly destruction and here is how I know it:
And there accompanied [Jesus] a great multitude of the people, [including] women who bewailed and lamented Him.
28 But Jesus, turning toward them, said, Daughters of Jerusalem, do not weep for Me, but weep for yourselves and for your children.
29 For behold, the days are coming during which they will say, Blessed (happy, fortunate, and [a]to be envied) are the barren, and the wombs that have not borne, and the breasts that have never nursed [babies]!
Jesus knows the Bible Record. He is the Bible Record. This is why the true daughters of Jerusalem, which I am one of and not some stupid Christian woman who is clueless, keeps weeping for themselves and the children–men will be cursed men.
And I am commanded as a wife to submit to and obey one man if I get married, and bear children. I’ve faithfully done that and yet, I am here to tell you that no matter how much I am perfectly obedient to the New Testament, which I am as an individual Christian woman, it never ceases to break me how Curtis will be Curtis: cursed. Jesus–remember I have been in the same place with Him quite a few times now–isn’t relating to womankind out of the curse: and he shall rule over you.
Curtis is. He doesn’t see it. There are no husbands that I know in the Christian world who see it. So what does a highly obedient woman of God like myself do with that after all the deliverance work I’ve done and even though try as my husband and I may–he still lives in the curse and I don’t anymore?
You would think, with the testimony I have, that my life story is singular. It isn’t. Women across the world are broken here. What is not true? It is not true that the men around them are broken. Men do not see how GOD is BROKEN and they did it. They did it and used women in that place. Men tippy-toe around the obvious BROKEN of GOD on a regular basis. A lot of times, as in my case in Austin, Texas, they tippy-toe around the women whom are not required to obey them because we aren’t married to them. (smile)
So I do not know what men in my life–including Curtis obviously–want to do with this BROKEN PLACE of I AM. I will tell you what I’m doing since it is hard to keep obeying and submitting at all levels in my life right now and not just the home level: I’m adoring GOD, BROKEN GOD, here and not clinging to an outward form but learning to take the pain yet again and use it all glory to God. Here is where all the men in my ministerial, congregational, and home level life song are struggling, generally speaking:
2 Timothy 3
But understand this, that in the last days will come (set in) perilous times of great stress and trouble [hard to deal with and hard to bear].
2 For people will be lovers of self and [utterly] self-centered, lovers of money and aroused by an inordinate [greedy] desire for wealth, proud and arrogant and contemptuous boasters. They will be abusive (blasphemous, scoffing), disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy and profane.
3 [They will be] without natural [human] affection (callous and inhuman), relentless (admitting of no truce or appeasement); [they will be] slanderers (false accusers, troublemakers), intemperate and loose in morals and conduct, uncontrolled and fierce, haters of good.
4 [They will be] treacherous [betrayers], rash, [and] inflated with self-conceit. [They will be] lovers of sensual pleasures and vain amusements more than and rather than lovers of God.
5 For [although] they hold a form of piety (true religion), they deny and reject and are strangers to the power of it [their conduct belies the genuineness of their profession]. Avoid [all] such people [turn away from them].
6 For among them are those who worm their way into homes and captivate silly and weak-natured and spiritually dwarfed women, loaded down with [the burden of their] sins [and easily] swayed and led away by various evil desires and seductive impulses. (It is obvious by now that Cara Ann Coffey is not one of these–I have wholly rejected the teaching of Christian men at the congregation level for years because churches are full of this….issue.)
7 [These weak women will listen to anybody who will teach them]; they are forever inquiring and getting information, but are never able to arrive at a recognition and knowledge of the Truth. (“the Truth” is capitalized here because “the Truth” is Jesus whom I’ve seen. That tells you what I am not all glory to God.)
8 Now just as [a]Jannes and Jambres were hostile to and resisted Moses, so these men also are hostile to and oppose the Truth. They have depraved and distorted minds, and are reprobate and counterfeit and to be rejected as far as the faith is concerned.
9 But they will not get very far, for their rash folly will become obvious to everybody, as was that of those [magicians mentioned].
10 Now you have closely observed and diligently followed my teaching, conduct, purpose in life, faith, patience, love, steadfastness,
11 Persecutions, sufferings—such as occurred to me at Antioch, at Iconium, and at Lystra, persecutions I endured, but out of them all the Lord delivered me.
12 Indeed all who delight in piety and are determined to live a devoted and godly life in Christ Jesus will meet with persecution [will be made to suffer because of their religious stand].
13 But wicked men and imposters will go on from bad to worse, deceiving and leading astray others and being deceived and led astray themselves.
14 But as for you, continue to hold to the things that you have learned and of which you are convinced, knowing from whom you learned [them],
15 And how from your childhood you have had a knowledge of and been acquainted with the sacred Writings, which are able to instruct you and give you the understanding for salvation which comes through faith in Christ Jesus [through the [b]leaning of the entire human personality on God in Christ Jesus in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness].
16 Every Scripture is God-breathed (given by His inspiration) and profitable for instruction, for reproof and conviction of sin, for correction of error and discipline in obedience, [and] for training in righteousness (in holy living, in conformity to God’s will in thought, purpose, and action),
17 So that the man of God may be complete and proficient, well fitted and thoroughly equipped for every good work.
I can tell you exactly where Curtis is sinning in this passage above. I can do the same thing for any man calling himself by the name of Christ and struggling with the deliverance ministry of Cara Coffey which I continue to render to GOD ALONE in the heavenly door construct. I’m not going to do that telling you because none of you would listen any better than Curtis does.
What I am doing is being fullest-ly broken, admitting it in my private life publicly as I’m called to do, forgiving it, and then moving on in simple obedience as a wife and mother while adoring GOD FULLY BROKEN since that is the only way to get out of the fray in heavenly doors in June of 2017 and beyond. (smile)